Goodbye.

One last kiss
One last hug
One last moment
Before I may never see you again.

My heart is breaking
My world is changing
Tears are streaming down my face.
And questions start running through my mind.

Why must you go?
Why can't you stay?
but even more so,
Why do I feel this way?

It's never been harder to say goodbye.

I said goodbye today to a friend who has always been more than just a friend. I might not see him for a long time. I may even never see him again. I don't know what I'm going to do. When I left, I was in tears. When I think of him, I only have regret for having nothing more.

God, guide me.

Your False Beliefs

I fear the very thing that brought me together with you the first time. The thoughts you have of her, hurt me. The things you dream, am I in them? Or are you only keeping me hanging on for the sake of your false beliefs? I say something, you must contradict. You say something, and I often agree. My dreams include you with smiles. My heart longs for yours in complete.But where does your heart lie? What do you see in your dreams? It almost certainly seems as though it is not me.

Falling for You

I feel myself melting when I think of you.
I form a puddle on the floor, a smile spread across my face.
My heart longs for your comfort, my body for your touch.
Simply stated
I'm falling harder and harder for you.
No matter what my mind says, nor what logic tells me,
I cannot care for your going away.
If all I have with you are a few weeks,
I will spend every possible moment with you,
Even if it comes to naught.

My Heart, It Is Yours

Maybe we shouldn't have even dared
Shouldn't have even take the first step down that stair
But it felt so good
and felt so right
when you kissed me and held me tight
But where shall this path lead?
To heartache I'm sure.
How can I not stop,
this train wreck I foresee?
No matter the pain that shall come,
you are so addicting,
so irresistible to me.
I can't rid myself of you.
Nor do I want to.
I almost say "I Love You" every time.
But those words are cursed
and I cannot say them without fear
even if I do love everything about you.
And even now,
I imagine you behind me,
holding me close, erasing my worries
with a soft and gentle touch.

The Confusion of Those Words

Confusion seeps beyond
every crevice of my mind.
The words that I've long awaited to hear
have finally been said.

But my head never wished to hear them.
No, my mind was in fear.
My heart called out for you since the first day
when I saw you for the first time.

It's too late now,
we can't take it back.
The way I look at you
scares me half to death.

~Anora Anakaya~

Always Hope

To soar

A mighty bird
unfurls its wings
and falls into the wind.
Gradually the eagle slows his descent.
The great wings lift him toward the clouds.

I watch his majesty from the ground.
My eyes filled with wonder.
How I'd love to soar.
How I wish that the eagle I saw
was really me.

But I have no wings.
I have to way to glide.
No my arms do not work the same
as those fascinating appendages.

But oh,
How I'd love to soar.